Ramblings on a Rainy Friday Night

Yes, I am home on a Friday night, and I'm here by choice, if I may add. I have to be up by 6am tomorrow, because I'll be driving all the way to Pampanga for work, and then to Antipolo after, for the teambuilding (which I really don't wanna go to.)

Anyway, because I'm kind of incoherent right now, I'll write via bullets --

• I'm now on twitter. I could see the reason why people get addicted to it. Personally, I'm still not 100% sold on it, but hey, I have one, so I have to maintain it.
  
• This is also the reason why I haven't been blogging recently. The option of being able to just microblog (write short statements instead of long essay-like entries like this one) is just too tempting for me, especially when I'm in a hurry.
• I'm hormonal. I spent this whole week either crying, cranky, or sarcastic.
  This is because I took the wrong medication for my hormonal problem. Yeah, yeah. My bad. I shouldn't have self-diagnosed.
• When you trust someone and then that person just breaks your trust, its really hard to get it back. I've talked with him extensively, a lot of times already, and somehow, I just can't bring myself to just believe in him again 100%. Not that I want to, but sometimes I just want to feel that kilig I felt when we were still okay. Okay, pretend I didn't say that.
• I don't want to go to tomorrow's teambuilding because of the following reasons:

1. I don't want to be too drunk to function. And, its not like I really can get drunk, I'll be driving.
2. I see nothing new with just drinking with the same group every week. Boring.
3. I'm sure I'm gonna see and hear things I do not want to see nor hear. Yes, I may be a prude, but I have my pet peeves too.
4. I have better things to do with my time.

Okay. I guess that's it!

Prolonging the Magic

For more than a week now I've been wondering when I'd eventually succumb to the virus that's been going around in the office. Well, today was the day.

No, scratch that. Yesterday was the day. Hahaha.

Okay, I didn't exactly get sick because of the office virus. I got the runny nose and sore throat because I spent most of yesterday either drenched with sweat, or rain, or the icky water from Rio Grande Rapids. Yep, you guessed right. I spent yesterday at Enchanted Kingdom. The weather was really, really bad, thus, the sickness. :s


EK was great. It was more fun than the last time I went there, definitely. The rides were still all the same, but it felt really good laughing and enjoying the little shallow things like winning hundreds of tickets at the arcade and getting clips and pens in exchange, and running around all wet from the rain.


And yes, indeed, the magic stayed with me. Sorry, cheesy as it may sound, it felt very refreshing not having to think about very adult problems for a while. It felt good only having to worry about what to eat next and which rides to ride next.

I miss being a kid. I miss not thinking of adult problems, and I miss having the perfect excuse for everything, because I was a kid.

Work Boredom

I'm really getting bored with work. I go in, read emails, do reports, hangout with officemates, go on my yosi break, do more reports, answer more emails, have my lunch break, yosi after lunch, more reports, more emails, reports, emails, reports, emails...

Well, you basically get what I mean, right?

So there. Yeah, I'm bored.

Things are sort of slowing down, so the pressure isn't really there anymore. I can't believe I'm complaining that there are now less things to rant about. Things are getting boring, really.

The thing with HR is, especially in recruitment, no matter how much you make your job not boring and as dynamic as you possibly can, there will always come a time wherein admin tasks will bury you alive. After all the events and planning, comes the admin tasks that come with every move that you do. This is what bores me the most.

A House is not a Home

Tonight I got home at exactly 10:45 pm. Congratulate me, because one, I got home before 12 midnight, and two, I went home straight after work. Yay! :)

Now, let me try doing this for a whole week. This is totally gonna be challenge for me, since I normally would still want to go out after work. Going home immediately makes me feel like a loser. Haha. Yeah, it's illogical, but hey, everyone has their own quirks, right?

Okay, fine.

Truth is, I get lonely when I'm at home.

A chair is still a chair
Even when there's no one sitting there
But a chair is not a house and a house is not a home
When there's no one there
To hold you tight and no one there
You can kiss good night

(A House is not a Home -- Dionne Warwick)

Weekend Randomness!

Oh yeah, habits are really not for me. I missed writing for 2 days, sorry. They say it takes 21 days to form a habit; 21 days of doing something again and again and again. This was supposed to be the rationale behind this blog, but anyway, I promise, promise, promise that I will not miss a day anymore. Or else.
But you see, I've been busy. Very busy.

Friday was spent at work, then with the girls, to watch SATC 2, and Saturday was spent at work again, then bowling and then videoke. Today I had a volleyball game at 7am. And yes, it still puzzles me why I keep myself busy during weekends, when all I really wanna do is sleep. I have no doubts, you'll be hearing more of this from me, since I don't see myself really slowing down anytime soon. Haha. :)

Anyway, just to share, here's what keeps me excited these days --

I now play volleyball again! :) This was taken this morning, at our game versus some at team, whose name escapes my mind right now. Nevermind that we're not super, super great, but the important thing is that we're doing something healthy, for a change. :) Admittedly, working in a BPO environment is very toxic, with people's hobbies being mostly geared towards things like smoking, alcohol and starbucks. Plus, with each ounce of sweat that I sweat out (and trust me, I sweat A LOT during games and practices) I feel like I'm sweating out all my frustrations and issues, which I find so great. Yay! :)

Hello, Kate Monster.

This is Kate Monster. She's a character from one of my favorite musicals, Avenue Q.

I'm naming this blog after her, because I am her -- a girl who used to be full of idealism, who tried to overcome biases day in and day out, but eventually got eaten by the unfairness of the world.

I'm kinda pretty, and pretty damn smart.
I like romantic things, like music and art.
And as you know I have a gigantic heart
So why don't I have a boyfriend?
Fuck!
It sucks to be me!

(It Sucks to be me -- Avenue Q)

She got better in the end of the musical. I hope I do too.

This new blog is the result of yet another quarter life crisis; still related to purpose, still related to my internal debate regarding idealism and pragmatism. I don't exactly remember how we figured that this could help, but regardless, I'll be writing everyday, just to form a new habit.

Anyway, will sleep now. More writing tomorrow!