This was the first photo of me that was taken when I first started working --
And this is me now; forty pounds heavier (ugh. don't ask.), with slightly longer hair, deeper eyebags, and dryer skin. Yes, I feel like I got uglier, shallowness aside.
I guess other people would share the same sentiments, because the sedentary lifestyle of working really affected me a lot. Stress of work and of other things (lovelife! haha!) got me into stress eating and emotional shopping, and into more cigarettes a day and more alcohol at night. The eyebags and dry skin were from countless sleepless nights, trying to fit in a normal work-life balance into a work schedule that's more than your typical 9 hours.
I could think of it that way, or, if I were to positive script, I'd say I just grew up. Gone is the innocence and the freshness that I used to have right after college. I became more worldly, more aware of how hard it is to earn the money that I was just so used to spending. To put it bluntly, I learned how much my money was worth.
Now I know a venti Starbucks Frappucino would mean half a day's work, and bag from Mango or Zara would mean two days. Heck, even my manipedi's worth a day of work!
This was a lesson that took two years for me to learn.
I'm looking forward to my third year at work, if only for this to be the year that I finally get to redeem myself. This means financially, physically and emotionally. I will have goals, and will work hard at attaining those goals!
After reading your last paragraph, I had a strong impulse to play "Eye of the Tiger". HAHA. But seriously, i agree about "growing up", but i also think we remain immature in a lot of ways (like, ignoring how bad smoking really is, sleeping less than 6-7 hours just to facebook/go out).
ReplyDeleteSo, the best scenario would be to "grow up" (i.e. be more disciplined/take responsibility), but keep the best stuff about immaturity (i.e. being spontaneous every now and then)
At the risk of sounding like a self-help book, Keep moving forward!