On Goals

Officially, I am now Maria Leonila Villegas, Senior Associate for Talent Acquisition. Yay! :) I think I've finally reached my goals in the company that I'm in right now. If and when I leave, it'll be without regrets, since I feel that I've accomplished my goals. Short term goals at least. :)

And now, having reached this point which I initially thought I wouldn't reach (I just originally planned on staying for just a year), I think its but right for me to start thinking of my long term goals. Honestly, I've never thought about it really seriously; I've been playing my career by ear ever since I started. Thinking about it always scared me to bits, like having nothing substantial to write in an essay question. All I could muster was one, I want to be a successful, Blackberry using, jet-setting, power-dressing career woman, and two, I want to have my own collection of LV and Balenciaga bags, and Manolo Blahnik and Christian Louboutin shoes. Great, right? Yes, in a nutshell, I wanted to be Miranda Priestly, the evil Meryl Streep in The Devil Wears Prada.

Obviously, those things aren't gonna happen overnight; and they're not gonna happen if I just continue to be my unfocused self. Inasmuch as people may think the things I mentioned earlier are really shallow, well, I still want those things. And those things aren't going to happen if I don't make this conscious effort to create goals for myself.

On Going with the Flow

Things happen for a reason. Funny thing is, most likely, the things that you hate the most are those that would me the most helpful in the long run.

Take my going to Ateneo, for example. I hated my dad for forcing me to go to that school, which was waaaaay too impractical because of the distance from my house, and of course the expenses. I hated the Jesuits, I hated how it made college feel like high school in terms of how structured it is, and how I couldn't relate to how conyo everyone was.

Four years after that dreaded first day in Ateneo, and two years after graduation, here I am, thankful that I went there.

"Life is a combination of choices and little moments." Funny that I just literally heard this from Mr. Shue as I am writing this. True that there are some things in life that you can predict, but there are also things that you can't. But I think it's much more fun not knowing what will happen next. Regardless of how much you weigh your options, how calculated your risks are, chances are, you still don't know what's going to happen next.

I'm starting to learn that I'm just a little speck of dust in the whole universe. Things will happen to me, regardless of whether I like them or not; I'm going to experience things that I may or may not be ready for. I'm just going to let things happen to me -- take calculated risks, do stupid things. Live life, in short. Regardless of how stupid I may get, I vow to make each experience as fun as I can, because that's how I want to be remembered, fifty years from now.

Sick Leave

I am home at 11:34 am on a Wednesday, because I am not feeling well. Yes, I get sick too. I blame the weather that's been very scary recently (summer-y hot in the morning, and stormy in the afternoon). Oh yeah, and also because I haven't had rest since last week.

I miss blogging, even if I have nothing to talk about. Microblogging is really getting addictive, that I can't seem to write complete paragraphs anymore. Gah.